BlueyedQT81

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The Light inside you..... by BlueyedQT81, literature

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The Light inside you.....

Change is in the air....not sure if its the changing of the season or the changing of myself....maybe its a bit of both...something needs to happen soon tho...I feel like i'm stuck again and the only thing to do is pull myself up and get it together...no one else is going to pull me up....no one else can pull me up....Everyone has their own problems...it wouldn't be fair to expect anyone to help me with what I have been going thru as of late...I hate feeling like this tho....I hate feeling like I'm standing on a rickety old bridge trying desperately to get to the other side because at any moment now the bottom is going drop and I'm going fall

The Craziness by BlueyedQT81, literature

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The Craziness

The Craziness of it all is that I Love my life and the direction its heading, but still can't help but feel sad...like something is missing! I don't know what that is as of yet, but I hope I find out soon!! I get this Lurking Feeling, like things are ending.... like im running out of time.... but running out of time for what ....I dont know? for a brief moment i was happy again, happy with the life that i thought i'd have, happy with the thought of becoming his forever. and then he lied to me, lied to get me back in his life, but it was a lie nontheless, how can i ever trust a man, when all the men in my life have either, physically hurt

What Really Frightens Me by BlueyedQT81, literature

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What Really Frightens Me

There are times in my life when I feel no one understands me. Then there are time when I totally connect with people. I'm told that I am Gods healer, that I help heal his people and in return he gives me everlasting life. I don't know what to say to that, and the more I think about it the more frightened I become. I'm not exactly sure why I become frightened, or why I know the things I know. All I know is that I give people strength and the more stronger they grow the more weak I become. Its as if people are draining the life out of me. And then I take a few days off and away from people and I am completely regenerated. For some

Rest In Peace My Sweet Baby by BlueyedQT81, literature

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Rest In Peace My Sweet Baby

The heavy Heart By Anna Robbins You looked up at me and I smiled, I said hi baby, mommy’s here, mommy loves you so much and we are going help you get better. I held you tightly as you closed your eyes, I whispered sweetly that everything would be alright I promised you I promised you I promised you I would do everything in my power to make you better If I had known that, that was going to be the last time I would see you alive, I would have held you a little longer If I had known that, that was going to be the last time I saw you breathing, I would have held onto you stronger. You fought so hard to stay with me, but in the en

Strength by BlueyedQT81, literature

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Strength

I feel like a child again, like those nights when I was terrified to be alone in my bed! My thoughts keep racing in my head like a marathon runner, moving from one event to another in swift fluid motions. I feel uneasy, like at any moment something could happen that’s bigger than I could have ever imagined. Something big is coming, I feel it in my gut; whispering in my subconscious ear , Luring me to the places I need to be , edging me closer to the people who will bring me strength when I need it for this new, unyielding journey I am currently on! He gives me the power that I lack in my ordinary life, the power to get done what it i

Passion Is Never Gone by BlueyedQT81, literature

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Passion Is Never Gone

Passion is never gone, just sometimes takes a wrong turn for awhile and……. I have a passion that has built up inside me, its so intense, so powerful that its all I can think about lately. I have always had this passion, ever since I can remember, but somewhere along the path of adulthood I lost it! I’m finding my passion for life again, for my art, for my love of raunchy romance novels, for my love of poetry writing. I don’t know why it took someone I really love leaving for a little while to help me to find it again. I am sure its what he fell in love with in the first place. I love sharing my life with this man. It is m

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The Light inside you..... by BlueyedQT81, literature

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The Light inside you.....

The Craziness by BlueyedQT81, literature

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The Craziness

Rest In Peace My Sweet Baby by BlueyedQT81, literature

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Rest In Peace My Sweet Baby

Strength by BlueyedQT81, literature

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Strength

Passion Is Never Gone by BlueyedQT81, literature

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Passion Is Never Gone

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About BlueyedQT81

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United States
Deviant for 15 years
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Current Residence: FL
deviantWEAR sizing preference: Non of ur biz
Print preference: 35mm Film.. there's nothing like the smell of a dark room
Favourite genre of music: Anything really!!...except maybe Polka...yuck
Favourite photographer: Ansel Adams
Favourite style of art: Scenic, Black & Whites, Portraits
Operating System: Vista...its a bit of a picky system huh...
MP3 player of choice: i must be old school I don't have one yet!...lol
Shell of choice: Tortillas...you can put practically anything in them and they're always good
Wallpaper of choice: do you mean computer desktop wallpaper??
Skin of choice: mine of course
Favourite cartoon character: Jessica Rabit...with a body like that who wouldn't like her
Personal Quote: life pulls you in all directions, you just have to know where you want to go

Favourite Visual Artist

My recently broke up with me ex boyfriend Kryptic Fate

Favourite Movies

Star Wars..the original ones

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Offspring, Stone temple Pilots, Greenday, Hinder, Nickleback

Favourite Writers

walt Witman, Nora Roberts, Stephen King

Favourite Games

Bioshock....That big Daddy is a Bitch to kill

Favourite Gaming Platform

again old school...sega Gensis

Tools of the Trade

35mm Cannon Eos Rebel, PenTax 35mm Wind-up

Other Interests

Reading, Writing Poetry, Photography

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BlueyedQT81

Dec 3, 2009

New Hurt

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heavy heart alone it hurts, thoughts racing, body aching, pain inside numbs my mind.....the clouds have rolled in with the changing of my mood. but i guess its never enough to say I love you, its never enough to say i tried, guess it wasnt meant to be....

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BlueyedQT81

Jun 8, 2008

Moving On

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You know the feeling when everything just becomes so clear that you realize your better off and that as much as you were hurt, things can only get better...well thats where i am currently at. I'm looking at things differently, i'm having fun and learning to just be me again and i have to say its a great feeling!!!

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BlueyedQT81

May 31, 2008

new beginings

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i don't know what to say......i suppose i'm single again.........trying to start over now after 6 years! what do i do now.....where do i begin to find me again!

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Same-side

Dec 26, 2011

It's been a while, but welcome to the group!

Glad to have you.

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